Denying Jesus

Mark 14:66-72.  This sermon was preached by Pastor Marty Bonner on January 10, 2021.

In Matthew 10:32-33, Jesus says, “Whoever confesses Me before men, him I will also confess before My Father who is in heaven.  But whoever denies Me before men, him I will also deny before My Father who is in heaven.”  Jesus puts confessing him and denying him in opposite positions, and declares that our present actions toward him will affect his future action towards us.

It is a sobering thought that we will all stand before the Lord, Jesus Christ, and through him give account to God the Father for our lives.  In that day, all the things of this earth will be absent, and it will only matter what our Creator thinks.  It will only matter what I did with Jesus in this life.  Did I deny him, or did I confess him?

Even though God will hold us accountable, He is gracious and merciful.  Our passage today involves the Peter, the disciple of Jesus, denying Jesus three times.  In doing so, he helps us to see the mercy of God to those who are worthy of punishment, but have repented of their sins, picked up their cross, and have followed Jesus.  Praise God that we are not shackled to our worst moments in this life.  Through Jesus, our greatest failures can be forgiven. 

Now, let’s look at our passage.

Peter denies Jesus three times

No doubt, Peter would describe this as the worst day of his life.  Everything that he had been doing for three and a half years was now going up in smoke, and he was powerless to do anything about it.  The worst part of it will be that he was unable to stand by the Lord in his darkest hour.

So, we have Peter in the courtyard of the high priest’s compound warming himself by a fire along with servants and soldiers of the high priest.  The interrogation and trial of Jesus appears to be on a balcony of some sorts.  They cannot hear and see all of the proceedings, but Peter is able to keep tabs on what is happening to Jesus. 

In this situation, Peter is confronted by a servant girl and then later by several other servants.  There is a contrast here of the strength of Jesus and the weakness of his disciples.

Jesus is confronted by the strong “bulls” of Israel.  They are the ones who have great power within Israel, even with being dominated by Rome.  However, Peter is confronted by a servant girl, and other servants of the high priest.  I do not mean to diminish his situation, but rather to point out the contrast.  Peter was not ready for such a confrontation with the big boys, but neither was he ready for this chance to cut his teeth on taking a stand for Jesus.  Our Lord is ready and able for all that our enemy can throw at him, but we are weak and in need of strength, and spiritual growth.  How wonderful it is that our gracious Lord sticks with us and enables us to grow stronger by his Holy Spirit and through our failures.

We are told in the other gospels that this servant girl was the one who was in charge of the door.  Having seen Peter fairly well at the door, she recognizes him as one of the followers of Jesus.  Peter is confronted several times by her on his relationship to Jesus.  The first confrontation is, “You also were with Jesus of Nazareth.”  The second is actually spoken to the group of servants, “This is one of them.”  The third confrontation comes from the group and clearly involves multiple accusation from “those who stood by.”  Mark records one of them recognizing his accent, “Surely, you are one of them for you are a Galilean and your speech shows it.”  It was no secret that the followers of Jesus were Galilean- Judas seems to be the only exception to this.  In John 18:26, we are told that one of the servants happened to be a relative of the man, Malchus, whose ear Peter had cut off with a sword.  “Did I not see you in the garden with him?” 

After each of these three confrontations, Peter denies Jesus instead of confessing his relationship with him.  To deny is to reject the claim of something that is stated, and in this case, thereby rejecting Jesus himself.  He disowns Jesus as his acquaintance, friend, or teacher, and thereby, he becomes guilty of the actions Jesus had warned them of earlier in Matthew 10.  Peter should have confessed Christ.  To confess is to speak the same as, or agree with someone or something.  The statements that Peter is confronted with are true, but he refuses to agree with them (speak the same thing as).  However, because they are statements of relationship, Peter refuses to confess Christ as his Lord and Teacher.

Clearly the servant girl is not physically intimidating, but she can notify the larger group and get Peter arrested too.  It is amazing how people who have very little natural power in this life can suddenly have great power over our choices because of the situation.  Peter’s fear is the true source of her power over him.

We don’t know what is going through Peter’s mind fully.  Perhaps, he intends only to nip it in the bud at the first denial.  Perhaps, he justified it because he was finding out what would happen to Jesus.  Regardless of his justification, there can be no justification for refusing to stand with Christ and denying a relationship with him.  “I do not know this man of whom you speak!” 

As if this wasn’t bad enough, Peter even invokes a curse and swears that he is not lying.  The KJV and the NKJV say that “he began to curse and swear.”  Cursing and swearing here is not cussing with vulgarities and profanities.  He is actually using a curse formula to back up the truth of his statements.  This is similar to our childhood years when we might say to someone regarding our veracity, “Cross my heart, hope to die, poke a needle in my eye.”  Clearly, we were being hyperbolic when we said that- I know of no one who had a needle poked in their eye when it was found out that they lied.

Swearing is similar.  We might say, “I swear on my mother’s grave!”  In Israel, it was common to swear on the altar or the temple, etc.  It was a way of making a kind of informal affidavit that others could hold you to.

We are never told to use a curse formula to back up our statements, and Jesus warned us not to swear by anything either.  Rather, he tells us that we are to let our yes be yes and our no be no.  What a different world this would be if we would operate in such a fashion.  Truthfulness is passé.  Only people who are prone to lying feel the need to swear and invoke curses on themselves in order to get others to believe them.  Of course, Peter is lying now.

By his own words and by his own judgment, Peter is condemning himself eternally.  How could he stand before God with such evidence against him?  These are the kinds of things that would stand against us before God on that day, not to mention that even our thoughts and the schemes of our heart can be brought against us as evidence.

Mark tells us that the rooster crowed for the second time at this point.  Luke tells us that, even as Peter was swearing that he was telling the truth, the rooster crowed the second time.  The gravity of the moment sinks in to Peter as he hears the rooster crow, and then, as Luke records, he looks up to see Jesus looking at him.  Jesus who is in his darkest hour and is even then being accused by others looks over and locks eyes with Peter for a moment.

The crowing of the rooster and the look of Jesus stirs up Peter’s memory.  What seemed like an eternity ago in the upper room, Jesus had told him that he would do this.  He had vehemently denied that he would leave Jesus, and here he was just as vehemently denying Jesus.  Peter is broken emotionally, leaves the area, and weeps bitterly.

It is difficult to come face to face with the weakness of our flesh, especially when we are insistent on seeing ourselves stronger than we are.  However, there is a contrast here between Peter and Judas.  Both are weak in the flesh and fail to stand with Jesus.  However, Peter truly desired to stand with Jesus, and is being tripped up by his flesh.  He has not fallen so as to be beyond recovery.  Judas, on the other hand, did not desire to stand with Jesus, and his flesh leads him to destruction.  God knows our hearts and aids those who are weak and yet still desire Him.

Peter’s mistakes

It would be good for us to pay attention to Peter’s mistakes because they are our mistakes too.

Peter kept his distance from Jesus out of fear instead of courageously choosing to remain by him.  He let his fear of arrest, and the subsequent bodily harm, separate him from Jesus.  He still believes in Jesus, but he can no longer follow Jesus where he is going.  This is also symbolic of a spiritual issue that we must all face.  Just hours before, Jesus had led Peter to a place of prayer and asked him to pray with him.  Notice that Jesus did not ask them to pray for him.  His intention all along was that they would pray for themselves and the coming trial.  Peter’s failure to pray in the garden is directly connected to his failure to confess Jesus in the courtyard.  His failure in private led to his failure in public.  His spirit was willing, but his flesh was weak.

Christ is calling us into the Word of God, and into a relationship of prayer.  This is a place where we can wrestle with our flesh and fears before the One who loves us.  When we neglect to shorten the distance between us and Jesus through the communion of reading his word and prayer, we are then at the mercy of our flesh and its inability to follow Jesus.  It is not enough to be a Christian superficially.  We must draw near to Christ in our hearts privately before we will ever be able to stand with him publicly.

A second mistake is that he ends up in the wrong company.  The separation from Jesus puts Peter in a group that will not help him grow spiritually.  They do not believe in Jesus.  Now, it is one thing to be surrounded by unbelievers when you are with Jesus, or surrounded by the enemies of Christ when he is with you. It is quite another to be on our own.  To stick with Jesus was to incur suffering, but to stick with the crowd was to be pulled into sin.  Hanging with the wrong crowd will always corrupt good morals and good decisions.  This connects to his third mistake.

Peter had shrunk back from suffering, but even worse, he was willing to say, or do, anything in order to avoid it.  This is where we all are in our flesh.  We do not want to suffer in this life.  It was important for Peter and the other disciples- and us- to come face to face with the reality that they were incredibly weak in the face of physical suffering.  This is precisely why Jesus sends us the Holy Spirit.

The Holy Spirit is not a guarantee that our flesh will never get the better of us.  Rather, He is a guarantee that God is with us.  He also convicts us of the right course of action, and then empowers us to follow through.  The empowering of the Holy Spirit is not as we would like in our flesh.  In many video games, a person may gain an item that strengthens them.  Typically, there is a sound or obvious action that lets them know that they are now powered up, or invincible.  The Holy Spirit does not empower in such a way.  Rather, He empowers us as we listen and step out in faith.  Like Peter stepping out of the boat, it may seem foolish, but if God directs us then we can trust Him to support us.

Peter made many mistakes and he sinned grievously.  We can surely relate.  Let us remember the love of Jesus for Peter that later found him fishing on the sea of Galilee.  Peter was forgiven of his sins, even denying Jesus, because he was repentant and turned towards Jesus, not away.  Let us be thankful that the warning of denying Jesus before men is not about an unpardonable sin, but about something that can be repented of, that can be washed away, and can be forgiven.

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Jesus the Prophet

Mark 8:31-38.  This sermon was preached by Pastor Marty Bonner on Sunday, December 29, 2019.

In the Old Testament, we see three critical leadership roles that existed in Israel.  Moses was a prophet to the people to speak on behalf of God to them.  Through him, God instituted the role of the High Priest, who was to be from the tribe of Levi of the family of Aaron.  Eventually, Saul was raised up as the first king of Israel.

The roles of High Priest and King were always kept separate.  The third group would consist of any number of prophets whom God had gifted to address the nation and its leaders.  From time to time, we would see a High Priest or King operating with a prophetic gift, but they were never seen as The Prophet for the whole nation.  In this sense, Moses was a very unique figure.  He was not a king or high priest, but he was a very singular prophetic voice to Israel.

We can recognize a kind of separation of powers operating through this in Israel.  The purpose of such separations is to protect against the inevitable bad actors that would come on the scene.  Men are fallen and we should always reject the notion of putting too much power in the hands of one person or a small group of people in this world.  However, this is more than just having them separate in order to protect the freedoms of Israel’s people.

The prophets in the Bible promised that an anointed one would come and an amazing truth is revealed in the person of Jesus.  This one man would be sinless and perfect.  He would be the rightful King of kings, but also our faithful High Priest.  On top of this, we will see today that he is The Prophet par excellence.  He is the only one who can be trusted with all three powerful positions.  He is the prophet that Moses promised would come, in Deuteronomy 18.  He is the one who not only proclaims God’s Word, but who actually is the Word of God sent from heaven.  The separation speaks to the fact that all beings fall short of the perfection of God’s Son, and therefore none of them, human or angel, deserve such powers over mankind.

Let’s look at how Jesus demonstrates his prophetic gift.

Jesus foretells his rejection, execution, and resurrection

Verse 31 has a lot packed into it.  The message of Jesus initially focused on the Kingdom of God and how to enter it.  He told people to repent and follow him if they wanted to participate in God’s Kingdom.  However, at some point, he began to tell his disciples that certain things must happen to him and to them.  These things were contrary to the typical view of the coming Messiah.

We are told that Jesus “began to teach them” that he was to “suffer many things.”  Isaiah 53 is the famous passage that clearly speaks of a suffering servant who would be “a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.”  Of course, the phrase, “suffering many things,” could be used of just that, many things.  Jesus goes on to explain what some of those many things would be.

He first prophesies that he will be rejected by Israel’s leaders.  Rejection is a bitter pill, and Messiah was prophesied to be rejected.  The rabbis of Israel often interpret such prophecies in the Old Testament as speaking of Israel itself.  It is true that Israel has known much rejection from other nations and has served as God’s servant and son on this earth.  However, this is only indicative of the reality that they were created by a Heavenly Father who is rejected by angels and humans alike.  Jesus was sent to reveal to us once and for all that even those who look godly must wrestle with the tendency of their heart to reject God.

King Herod was not even Jewish and was willing to kill tens of young children in order to protect his power over the nation.  The High Priest Caiaphas was willing to ram Jesus through a sham of a trial in order to protect his power over the nation.  Most of the elders of Israel were in full agreement with these actions too.  The scribes and the lawyers did not accept Jesus because he called them out for their legal trickery in avoiding the commands of God. 

Such rejection is difficult to experience and righteously process.  Young kids who experience unusual doses of rejection in a society often become antisocial.  However, Jesus is unique.  He is antisocial in the sense that he is critical of the society of his generation and its corrupted ways.  Yet, he is not really antisocial.  He is not angry and raging against society.  Rather, he is offering society a clear picture of where it is broken and in need of healing.  He is not warped and twisted by a root of bitterness.  Instead, he shows us the way to life in the midst of a wicked generation. 

We should not be deceived.  We too are in a wicked generation, and we too need the help of Jesus not to be twisted and warped in our own self-righteousness.  We need the help of the Holy Spirit to navigate these days and still be a river of life flowing in the desert of our society.

Next, Jesus prophesies that he will be executed or killed.  It is bad enough to be rejected, but being executed is an extreme form of rejection.  Isaiah 53 alludes to this fate for the Messiah.  However, Daniel 9:26 tells us in plain language that the Messiah would be cut off or executed.  “After the sixty-two weeks, Messiah shall be cut off, but not for Himself; and the people of the prince who is to come shall destroy the city and the sanctuary.  The end of it shall be with a flood.”  No one in Israel as expecting the Messiah would come in order to be executed, and yet there it is in plain language.  The disciples were just as clueless about this as the rest of their society.

Lastly, Jesus prophesies that he will rise again after three days.  The story will not end with his death.  Now, the word for “rise again” can simply mean to get up off of your chair, or to get up out of a sick bed.  However, no one can mistake what “rise again” means in the context of a dead person.  He is foretelling his death and resurrection, both of which seem quite improbable.  They don’t believe that this is supposed to happen to the Messiah.  Also, Jesus was extremely popular with the multitudes of Israel.  Even though the leaders did not like him, why in the world would they ever kill him?  They are godly men. 

Yet, Jesus was completely right in his prophecy.  He was a true prophet, and he did rise again after being in the grave for 3 days.

Who rebukes whom?

In verses 32-33, Peter gives voice to the common thinking among the disciples.  Mark does not give us Peter’s actual words, but we are told that Peter takes Jesus aside from the group in order to rebuke him.  Matthew 16 gives us a clue when Peter states, “Far be it from You, Lord; this shall not happen to You!”  He could only see that the Messiah was to rule over Israel as its king.  How could he be rejected and killed?  Peter respects Jesus enough to take him aside, but he is still stepping out of place to try and teach the teacher.  Yet, it is clear that the disciples know what is happening and being said.  Peter is only voicing what they are all thinking.

There is an important contextual event happening here.  Just before this prophecy and rebuke, Peter had been complimented by Jesus for hearing the Father and recognizing that Jesus was the Messiah.  However, moments later (we don’t have a clear statement of how long later), Peter thinks that he knows what the Father wants to happen, and yet he is very wrong.  This must always be a lesson to us.  Hearing from God today does not guarantee that my ideas of tomorrow are from him too.  We should walk in humility with the things that God shows us.  We are the errant students.  Only Jesus is the perfect one.

Of course, you are never going to succeed when you attempt to rebuke God.  We have a whole generation of people who think they are more righteous than Jesus or God.  Such pride ends in the same place that Peter found himself.  Jesus quickly turns the rebuke back on Peter and puts him in his place.  Yet, before Jesus does this, we are told that he turns around and looks at his disciples.  The following rebuke appears to be for all of their benefit, not just for Peter.  Yes, Peter is the tip of the spear and thus he is the one being rebuked.  However, all of the disciples need to hear what Jesus has to say.  He needs to nip this persuasion that they all hold in the bud.

First, we notice that Jesus addresses Satan.  He is not calling Peter Satan.  Rather, he is recognizing that Peter is listening to the wrong spirit.  Wow, how could he hear the Father one minute and proclaim Jesus as the Messiah, and then hear from Satan the next?  It is quite easily done.  We are very manipulable.  Our flesh tends to hear what it wants to hear and believe what it wants to believe.  This works in our favor when God’s Word happens to align with what we want.  Yet, the things that we want do not always line up with God’s Word.  In these times, it works against us.

Jesus commands Satan to get behind him.  Peter is listening to the wrong spirit and thus is attempting to get in the way of where Jesus knows that he must go.  We are used to unbelievers being used by the devil to try and stop God’s people from doing His will.  However, do not forget that Satan is always looking for those among the believers who will allow themselves to be led by their flesh, and therefore, to be led by him to resist what God is saying and doing.  Religious leaders must be very humble and careful about the pronouncements that they make because of these realities.  So, how do we keep this from happening?

Jesus gives us the key in what he says next.  Peter’s mind is not set on the right things, i.e. what God wants.  They have not made it their concern to discern the intentions of God in Jesus.  Instead, they are focused on what they want to happen and what will work to their benefit.  Our desires and hopes often get in the way of what God is doing.  They can mislead us even to the point that we become a tool or a useful idiot for the devil.  It is important that we recognize this aspect of ourselves, and work hard to keep our minds focused upon what God wants as opposed to what we want.

Of course, this area is fraught with pitfalls.  The important thing is to always hold what you think and want very loosely.  Pray about it, and meditate upon it.  Ask God to show you His good and perfect will.  He does not always answer with a clear word, but He always helps us to see through the issues.  Just like Peter came to see that Jesus was the Messiah over time, so too, we can come to see what God is doing in our generation, if we are patient and willing to learn.  We too can be led by the Father rather than being led by Satan.

Jesus clarifies what it will take to be his disciple

This situation requires Jesus to emphasize the point, and even to throw down a gauntlet of sorts.  In verses 34-38, Jesus tells his disciples that if they want to follow him then they will need to know right now that it won’t be easy.  He gives a series of difficult things that we must do in order to be his disciples in actuality.

The first is that we should deny ourselves.  This means to refuse the things that you want and instead to go after the things that God wants.  Just like Peter would later say of Jesus, “I don’t know the man,” so we must say of our own self and its desires.  Too many believers are trying to follow Jesus and yet not deny themselves.  Jesus states categorically that this is impossible.  Like trying to hold onto two horses that are going in opposite directions, we will eventually let go of one and cling to the other.  There is no way around it.  Life will force the issue sooner or later.  Which will you choose?

The second hard task is to take up our cross.  To deny yourself is the negative aspect.  It is the thing that we are rejecting and turning away from.  However, the next step is part of the positive aspect.  It is not enough to reject yourself and yet embrace the wisdom of a pastor, theologian, politician, or any other person on this earth that we respect (yes, including any angels).  Only Jesus is worthy of our devotion.  Yet, to follow him requires that we carry our cross.  Why a cross?  Most of us are not going to be put to death on a cross literally, and thus the cross is not primarily literal.  This is not to diminish the necessity to be ready to die for Christ in such a way.  The cross represents the implement of our own death.  That unique way in which I need to die to the things of this world and the way they pull on my flesh.  Eventually the path of Jesus will lead to a place that causes your flesh to shrink back.  Like a cross, it will lead in a direction that will cause death and loss of things that your flesh wants to keep.  It is in these times that our initial denial is challenged.  It is easier to start to follow Jesus, but hard times will come after it and test our resolve.  Will I embrace the cross of those things that I have to die to and lose in order to follow Christ?  That is the question.  Only a person prepared to die can survive such times.

Then, we are to follow Jesus.  We cannot have the cart before the horse.  Ultimately, Christians are not trying to die for dying’s sake.  Rather, we are following Jesus.  When we follow Jesus, conflicts will arise from it.  We are carrying our cross because at certain points along the way our Lord will make it clear to us where we need to die.  We are carrying our cross because we are always ready to join our Lord in his sufferings and death.  We do not do so because we love death, rather because we love the life that only our Lord can give.  Christians are those who do not need to fear death, loss, and not getting what they want.  We don’t need to fear these because we serve the Lord of Life.  If we lose anything for his sake then it will produce life in another way.

So, Jesus ends with several powerful statements.  He puts life and our soul in front of us.  If you live to save your life then you will lose your soul.  Wow, that is a scary statement.  What is my focus?  Are there things that I want so bad that I keep scratching and clawing in order to get them?  Are there things that make me so scared that I run from them and refuse to face them?

When we try to protect ourselves, we run from the very things that will help us to keep possession of our own soul.  Jesus basically says that we should stop the self-preservation approach to life, and simply trust God.  Which would you rather have?  The life you always wanted or to have full possession of your soul?  In Luke 21:19, Jesus says, “By your patience, take possession of your soul.”  We often become impatient and want things now.  God asks us to trust Him and wait for certain things.  There is a day of reward coming for those who suffer loss for His sake.  Can I wait for it?

Instead of self-preservation, we are to lay our lives down for the sake of Jesus and his Gospel.  This is not about me choosing to lay something down for Jesus.  It is a result of following Jesus and hearing his voice.  If I give up all manner of things except that which Jesus is asking me to surrender then I have not died to anything yet.  This is rebellion.  When I follow Jesus, I will run into a situation where I will be afraid for something in my life.  That fear will threaten to lead me off course.  Yet, in that moment, if I will lay that thing down, put it on the altar as a sacrifice, then I will be free to follow Jesus. 

The disciples had to die to the desire to sit on thrones next to Jesus.  If they kept clinging to that idea then they would not have gone on to do what they did.  Yet, there is coming a day after the resurrection when God will raise them up to rule over the tribes of Israel.  So, the choice is always between the life we want now and our own soul.  You can’t keep both.

To lose your soul is a scary thing.  Jesus asks us what a person can give in exchange for their soul back.  There is no answer, but to die to self and follow Jesus.  Only he has paid the price to give us full charge of our own souls. 

Am I ashamed to follow Jesus?  There are many voices in our culture touting the name of Jesus, even using it as some kind of billy club to get believers to head in a particular direction.  Do not forget that there has never been a time in which truly following Jesus led to all the things your flesh ever desired.  No, Jesus was marching towards public shame and humiliation, and until he comes back, this is our lot too.  Let’s not be ashamed of our Lord.  His shame brought us our souls, and brought us true life.  Let’s carry the shame of this world as a badge of honor because, when he returns, we will exchange that shame for the glory of Christ!

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Weeping May Last through the Night”

Luke 22:54-62.  This sermon was preached by Pastor Marty Bonner on March 13, 2016.

Today we will look at a very dark time in the life of our Lord Jesus.  It is the middle of the night and he has been arrested.  Jesus described it as the hour of the power of darkness.  Of course, he was referring to more than just the natural darkness.  But, rather, he refers to the spiritual powers that had blinded the leaders of Israel and used them to accomplish an evil end.  Even as the day will later dawn so the events will continue to spiral into ever darker and darker deeds, until the Lord of glory lies dead in a tomb of stone.

Night time has always had a powerful hold on the mind of men.  It reminds us of our limitations and ignorance, and enhances our fears.  It is no coincidence then that it should become a metaphor for how our soul feels when it enters into difficult and “dark” times.  Elie Wiesel, in his small book describing his plight in the concentration camps of Hitler, simply entitles it, “Night.”  He powerfully describes the darkness as the realization of being abandoned by men and by God.  Of course later he would declare that humans must never give in to hopelessness in such times.  And so I pull a phrase from Psalm 30:5 to make the title of this sermon.  This verse reminds us that, no matter how dark the night and how real the abandonment, the night will end and the day will surely dawn.  “Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes in the morning.”  Let us learn from our Lord to embrace the dawn that is promised from God himself, in spite of the nights we experience on this earthly plane.

Peter Denies Christ

In verses 54-62 we find the disciple Peter denying Christ.  In this context to deny someone is to refuse to publicly associate with them, and to refuse to speak up on their behalf.  Hours earlier, when Jesus had warned Peter that he would do such a thing, Peter had vehemently rejected the Lord’s claim.  He insisted that he would stand by Christ even if he had to die with him.  So how could this happen when Peter so strongly desired to stand with Jesus?

Well we can begin with the phrase that says Peter “followed at a distance.”  When troubled and darkened times hit us, we are often not prepared.  Our flesh too easily slips into actions of self-preservation.  Sure, Peter still loved Jesus and was even concerned enough about what would happen to Jesus that he keeps his attention fixed upon Jesus.  Yet, at the same time he keeps enough distance between him and Jesus in order to remain safe.  We must understand that we cannot “remain safe” and be a disciple of Jesus.  We cannot “follow at a distance,” and truly be a follower of Jesus.  Such is our temptation during this time in our own society.  Do I follow Christ at a distance?  Am I attempting to protect myself from any negative fall-out that may attach itself to him?

Thus Peter ends up in the courtyard of the high priest, warming himself at the servants’ fire, and hoping to see what will happen to Jesus.  It is here that the infamous three denials will occur.  It is a young, female servant that first accuses him of being one of the disciples of Jesus.  Here Peter responds by denying that he knows Jesus.  Of course this is a lie.  Peter had basically lived with Jesus for about three years.  He knew Jesus quite well.  They had spent countless hours through all manner of ordeals.  Peter had seen Jesus do amazing miracles of healing and casting out demons.  He also saw the transfiguration of Jesus when his divine glory was allowed to shine through unveiled.  This denial is sad because the whole purpose of what Christ was doing was so that we could know Him and experience the love that the Father has for us.

But it doesn’t stop there.  Peter is challenged again by another that he is “one of them.”  Essentially Peter denies that he is one of the followers of Jesus.  So he is not only publicly separating himself from Jesus, but also his followers.  It is important to understand that we belong to a family of disciples.  We are to love each other in the same way that Jesus loved us.  To distance ourselves from each other is to distance ourselves from Jesus.  The two are intertwined.

A third time Peter is challenged.  Here he gives what we would call the categorical denial, “Man, I do not know what you are saying,” (i.e. what you are talking about).  There is no way in which you can connect me to this man.  This world is not content to leave well enough alone.  You will be challenged over and over again, until you either own up to your connection to Jesus, or you completely deny and separate yourself from him and his followers.

Immediately a rooster crows and Peter is reminded of the Lord’s words only hours earlier.  This is the time of Peter’s “sifting.”  Just as Jesus had described, Peter has failed because, even though his spirit was willing, his flesh was weak.  Luke records a significant detail.  Jesus is being questioned and abused somewhere close enough to the courtyard (if not in it) that he can make eye contact with Jesus.  Thus we have the rooster crowing and then Jesus looking Peter in the eye.  What a sad moment in the life of Peter.  He not only is faced with his failure, he suffers the further humiliation of the Lord looking right at him as he did it.  What kind of look do you think it was?  We are not really told.  Perhaps it was a “do you believe me now” questioning look.  Maybe it was simply a lonely look of one who is all alone.  Perhaps it was a tender look out of his desire to save Peter and all mankind.  I doubt it was a scowl of hatred.  Jesus knew what Peter would do and had told him to strengthen his brothers after he had repented and returned back to Christ.  Peter comes face to face with the cold, hard reality that he cannot do what he wants to do, what he needs to do, what is simply right.  Yet, Jesus would walk this dark night alone and abandoned by all men- and to a degree even by the Father Himself.

The bitter weeping of Peter is the sorrow that we experience when we discover our own futility.  We dare not attempt to avoid such moments.  They are a critical and necessary component to our salvation.   Unless we come to a place where we are made to face our inability to be righteous, we will never understand the depths of what Jesus has done for us.  In this moment our sorrow will either swallow us up destroying our faith, or it can bring us to repentance and surrender to the Spirit.  Have you had such a moment?  Do you understand that your salvation and place of acceptance in Christ is not based upon how well you have performed, but simply upon your faith in him?  Even when our faith fails to help us do the right thing, that does not mean it is completely gone.  Jesus is the true and righteous judge.  He knows when we are repentant of our sin and when we are rebelliously holding onto it.  Though weeping may last through the dark night of our soul, there is a morning that God has promised to all who will let go of themselves and embrace Him in simple faith.

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